The end of each year is a time for reflection for many of us. We like to look back on the year to see if we spent it as we hoped we would. Since this year was a milestone in many regards for me I took this period much more seriously than I have in many past years. My sense of my own mortality is creeping up on me. I certainly see that my days are numbered so to speak, but then again aren’t all our days numbered? It is a matter of how small the number is.
I did something this year that I have not done in the past . I basically suspended much of my normal routine in this last month of the year to contemplate where I am in my life and where I hoped to be and to study and think about why the two were misaligned. Starting tomorrow, what I will be spending several days’ posts on where I gained insight from this meditation/discernment period.
I know more about myself from these insights and I think that maybe you can glean some of that in your own life’s circumstances. I like to think of myself as a pretty unique person but in reality we all have more common threads than we don’t.
I learned, and in some cases relearned, many things about myself and I also realized that I will probably never learn other things about myself. It was a period of joy but also a period of despair and even some levels of depression.
A big part of the process included silent meditation and prayer as my Quaker brethren call “centering down”. That is sitting silently and listening to the spirit within me. Another part of the process was to look for advice from others and that led me to a book entitled “How to Retire Happy, Wild, and Free”. I will be discussing that more tomorrow. Another serious part was to re-affirm some core things that are important to me no matter where I am in my life. These are things that I have always drawn on as one of my purposes in life.
This was a serious attempt to making myself who I want to be for the remaining years of my life. This journey starts tomorrow…